Since leaving high school I have moved house 6 times. This time will be my 7th. Seven is my lucky number and I must admit this time around I feel like I’m actually ready and that some really good things will come of it. The other times I moved were because I felt I had no other choice and came about due to commitments to family members and to myself.
When I first moved out of home I felt I had no other choice but to live with my boyfriend at the time. My college is in Sydney and there is no where else that I can do my course face to face, so moving to Sydney seemed my only option albeit an expensive one. Combining our wages was the only way we could both afford it and we didn’t really even second guess the decision to do that – we’ve always been the types to just do what needs to be done to accomplish our goals.
Last year I had to give up studying because I had to move back to my home town due to some family dramas; adults were acting like children and leaving those in need up shit creek without a paddle. Even though numerous confidants told me it wasn’t my responsibility I still felt that it was within my power to do something, and if I could do something then why shouldn’t I? I also had to work more hours to accomodate for the extra mouths to feed as well as the extra travel that my then fiancé needed to do to keep his job – which meant I had no time for study or for the travel required to go into college.
To be completely honest – I still resent the people who I feel were the cause for this. I’m in my 3rd year and if I had of kept living in Sydney I could have been graduating at the end of this year.
I can’t keep living in the past though and in reality it was my choice, I could have said no and walked away. Unfortunately my personality just wouldn’t allow that to happen but again, that’s no one’s fault but my own. However, now that this chapter of my life is coming to an end I’m excited. I’m feel like I’m finally ready to dedicate my life to what I want to do and start being who I want to be. I’ve been mostly focussing on the move at the moment and preparing my fiancé and I for the changes that are to come so I’m sorry if I’ve been a little slack with my practice. I’m working on a few things including my own set of divination stones, warding and protection for the new house, our wedding ceremony and creating some spiritual artwork so stay tuned for updates that I’m sure will be coming very soon.