Two weeks in to my Four Season Journey (4SJ) and I’m starting to get into the swing of things. I’ve been regularly writing in my Thirteen Moons Journal and recording any dreams that I have as soon as I wake up.
As part of the Course Work for the Opening Gathering (OG) I’ve got to come up with some intentions and goals to use in ceremony so I thought I’d do a bit of brainstorming here.
To learn about myself by connecting with the ancestral knowledge that I can feel lurking just beyond my reach in my subconscious.
To help other people access this same knowledge. I want to change the way people perceive the Feminine and through that, change the way they treat it/her.
To learn to use my intuition properly and to develop my divination skills.
To approach my life and my studies with curiosity, respect and acceptance.
Make friends with like-minded people.
Get involved in discussions (and expressing my opinions regardless of what I think other people will think of me).
To feel more confident and well-spoken on the topic.
Allow my creativity to lead the way.
Make a drum, a medicine bag and a mask.
Make myself available to my community (and feel confident and proud at what I’m doing).
About a week or two ago I decided to drop out of University which is a massive decision for someone who does everything to avoid feeling like a ‘failure’.
Studying Naturopathy has been my rock and only constant since I graduated high school four years ago. After some reflection and a heart-to-heart with my husband, I realised that a part of me was holding on to something that didn’t quite fit into my life anymore.
In recent years I’ve experienced the system, particularly the education system. I had my head constantly filled to the brim with knowledge (some of it seemingly irrelevant) only to find it empty after a short break or during exams. I experienced the highs of my anxiety leading up to deadlines and the lows of depression during my downtime.
I’ve been riding these emotional waves for four years and to be completely honest I’m very tired of it.
I still intend to become a herbalist but I’m going to wait a few years before I try again. I very much believe in the power of herbal medicine and nutrition and part of me knows that to heal others I must first heal myself.