Attune to Self Through Herbs and Nature – Week 3

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Last week when I got there Kate was standing out the front. A lady walked past and asked if we worked in the shop; we shook our heads. She poked her head into the store, for some reason this prompted me to walk inside. This forced her to come in. I believe I did this for a reason because she joined the group after Nikki explained to her what we were all there for. There was also a bush fire somewhere close as we could all smell the smoke. We were told to think of an emotion – I chose fear.
“Resting in Awareness” I felt very still – by myself.

Passionflower
Felt my heart beating. The herb was “asking to be recognised” – this could be in reference to the fact I’d been prescribing passionflower all week and had not recognised it. I wanted to crush it between my fingers to begin with; I really wanted to play with it in my hand. The taste reminded me of black tea with milk. The taste then seemed to change every time I took a sip. At this point we were guided into meditation by MaYanya; we were told to picture a ribbon at the base of our spine (mine was red) and then unravel it using the breath (one vertebrae at a time) to the top of our spine where a flame was lit. The brow, third eye and crown chakras were activated and opened – this was facilitated by Nikki who was walking around touching us on certain parts of the body (she cradled my head at one point, touching the sides and the space between my brows; after this the space between my brows tingled until the end of the meditation). We were then directed to imagine a pillar of concentrated light expanded down and into the body where it was directed into the stomach area (inspired by this video – that isn’t the original music btw). This helped the release of emotion through the body. I held my hands at my stomach in a triangle shape (pointing downwards) and went into a deep meditation and far away. I imagined myself in this scene.
On waking my sense of touch was much enhanced; I liked the feel of my dress and the carpet I was laying on. Light sensitivity was also present.

Calamus Root Powder “After sending the mercury, silvery energy to the moon and back 3 times my area felt a lot stronger – more tangible” – direct quote from my notes. “We were taken into a pool of liquid in the stomach that looked like silver mercury. We expanded our light body to a field around the body, and then traveled in our light bodies to the moon and back, clearing all the emerging energies from the stomach that were activated by the passionflower” – direct quote from MaYanya’s notes. At the beginning and the end MaYanya instructed us to touch and feel our aura or light body. This is when I noticed that my aura was a lot stronger and more tangible.. I felt that I could physically feel the edges. Others in the group seemed to be getting quite a bit of movement in the stomach area – I didn’t feel anything noteworthy.

Horny Goat Weed
Nothing really noteworthy here. It gave me a soft feeling and I had a circular movement happening within my body (clockwise). MaYanya says that it “anchored us back in to the base center from whence we had journeyed and pulled us back into the body after our ‘cosmic’ handing over of our emotions into the energy body of the moon”.

Check Out
Afterward I felt strong and alive. I was bouncing around the shop and was extremely keen to do our ‘sound’ (at the end of every session we all make a sound to bring us back into the world and to also acknowledge the beings and say thanks). I felt that it helped me get through this week unscathed as it was very emotionally charged for me. I still came home and was extremely exhausted but it’s taken me a day to recover when normally 2 or 3 would be needed.
NOTE: We don’t find out what herbs they are until the very end.
NOTE: Everything written in “quotation marks” is a direct quote from MaYanya, Nikki or one of the other people of the group.

Attune to Self Through Herbs and Nature – Week 2

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There was a storm looming and it had been for a majority of the day – as a result the air was very electric and we were all quite restless.
I felt bigger than my body. This was an interesting development for me because I’d had this experience many times when I was a child and it really bothered me. I would get upset and mum would ask me what was wrong, “I feel weird” was all I could say. How else could I describe it? It gave me some comfort to know that all along I was connecting to the Great Being.
Nikki started off by making it clear that whilst people’s pasts are important to who they are and what they bring to the class – that we weren’t a group counselling session. This needed to be said but Saleema* wasn’t there and she was the one who needed to hear it. Ironic. In Saleema’s place we had another lady – she is yet to be named as I haven’t seen much of her personality (and tbh can’t remember her real name).

Hawthorn
Sweet smelling, light (not heavy). Found a really pretty looking twig in my dried herb which I’ve sticky-taped to my notes (decorative and intricate). We were instructed to observe the herb in tea form – to take this being in through the eyes. I wanted to blow on the tea to make the liquid move/dance. I moved the cup around in my hands to make the light and shadows play in the liquid “reflection in a pool of water”. I got the feeling that this herb was extremely playful, young and gentle in nature.
MaYanya was saying that “You need to merge fully with the essence of you being.. you will enable healing.” She went on to explain that we very rarely look people in the eyes “Why is it so hard to look another deeply in the eye? Because your reflection is there – your healing is there”. I found this interesting because on many occasions I have looked at myself in Brian’s eyes so that I can try and figure out how he sees me. Overall, I loved the way this herb made me feel – very happy and relaxed as if everything was going to be OK

Cleavers
The smell reminded me of just before it rains. My first impression was of a quiet and relaxing herb (I felt my head dropping). This was a bit of a confusing herb for me – I went on a bit of a journey. I felt that I was just about to drift off when it pulled me back again and I felt a tingling in between my eyes. At one point we were directed to recognise any heat in the body and to take notice of where it first showed up; mine was the throat. We then began tapping the thymus and rubbing it in a circular motion to anchor in to that spot and to set the intent to balance. At this point we were directed to think of a colour – I saw many. Blue was the first > After tapping; Green > After pulling earlobes > I saw the sun; yellow, bright and warm > I burped and MaYanya began playing the singing bowl > a big flash of lightening lit up the sky outside where I saw a deep purple.
“All present felt a huge shift of movement in the body – working with water (the tide) in the body enabling a calming of the rough seas of emotion. The cooler blue was registered by several present – activating lymphatic cleansing.” MaYanya and Nikki’s notes.

Frankincense
This was was in a different form than any other herb we’ve used. We got an essence applied to any part of the body that felt right (I immediately thought of temples) and had a resin to hold and sniff – it had a spicy smell. I licked the resin and it gave me a tingling sensation on my tongue (spicy). At this point I had a feeling that it was one of the three offered to Jesus at his birth but since I didn’t really know any of them I put it out of my mind. It seemed very rhythmic – I twirled the resin in my fingers and moved my legs side to side. I saw a purple-blue rod in my minds eye and when I opened my eyes I noticed the shop lights on the roof – and that one was missing. This possibly could have something to do with one half of a whole as I was thinking about Brian.
We accessed the quantum jumping facility through the imagination and were invited to make a wish. I can’t recall how we did this though or what I saw in my imagination and I haven’t written it down. I wanted to put the resin on my upper lip so I could smell it constantly – this I allowed myself. “Expanded the field of all those present to a joyous, uplifting feeling”.

Check Out
I felt very much in my head at this stage. The storm outside was making everyone restless but I also believe it facilitated the experience. On my way home in the car I continued the noise (at the end of every class we make a noise to bring us back to Earth and to acknowledge and thank the beings in the herbs).
NOTE: We don’t find out what herbs they are until the very end.
NOTE: Everything written in “quotation marks” is a direct quote from MaYanya, Nikki or one of the other people of the group.
* name changed for privacy.